I love spending time alone. So does he.
There was one night when I went alone to a cafe with an intention to read journals. But not long after I had a seat, there was someone walked away passing my table. As soon as we noticed each other, we both were a bit surprised. As usual, we got silent for seconds then mumbling we didn't know each other. Of course, it was a platitude. We soon greeted each other. Apparently, he arrived earlier than me. I asked him to sit with me then a minute later he moved on to my table.
He started the talk by telling me how many (new) girls had a crush on him. Some tried to flirt on him, some gave him cheesy pick up lines, some others admitted they liked him and all. I was no surprised. It's so typical of him and he's kind of proud of it seen in his evil smile he was showing. He always says that he's handsome. Yes, he is. But his good looking face drops by everytime he tells me so, lol. We've been knowing each other since the first time we encountered the college life. I totally had no interest in him cause he acted as if he's the most handsome guy on earth. Meh, mlz bgt. Not long after that, something made us work together. As I got to know him better, I started to see the good in him. We started having talks and sometimes having dinner together. So what's the good in him? He's so smart. He reads a lot of books. Like A-LOT. It's not only (classic) novels, but also books of philosophy, politics, history, so many theories, and so on. I kinda always look stupid when I talk to him. His knowledge is just too wide. I only have 10% of his knowledge perhaps. And what's other? Nothing. Lol. He had no sense of humor. I almost never laughed whenever he threw a joke for I never got the funny point. Then he'd say, "Hahaha, kan aku emang gak bisa lucu,"
At one moment on a particular event, he came in. I was out for a while without knowing he would come. As I got back, a girl who had a crush on him told me, "Mba, tuh dari tadi ada yang nyariin," I guess she was hurting while telling me so. Then another girl who used to be closed to him told me the same, "Udah ditungguin tuh," Guess who? Yes, it's him, "Aku mau ngomong." I knew it perfectly it's just an excuse so that he could go away from those girls lol. Told you. He has sort of...many 'fans'. Had no idea why. I kept telling him that if only those girls knew him better, they would definitely have a second thought to have a crush on him. He thought so. Lol. Yet, I did appreciate how he didn't take advantage of them. Right after he knew someone had a feeling on him and he thought he didn't share the same feeling, he'd stop. He even left their chats unread. So I was chill. Never really cared about how many girls out there who admired him. It's his right to choose. As we all know, someone will always find a way to cheat even if we protect them so tight. So I had no worries. I let him do anything he wanted.
He's full of dreams. And he told me some. He's so passionate about what he did. I supported his decisions even when I didn't really agree them. Cause yeah, he knew himself best so why should I tell him what to decide when it's all his life after all? Years after, something hit him hard. He knew that many people didn't like him, but he didn't stop. Rumors were spreading about him. I couldn't trust it tho. I knew he's not that good, but I knew it, too, he's not that bad. I made sure by asking him. He told me the truth without forcing me to be in his side. I believed in him.
Wait, I guess I'm being too far from what I've started at the very top of this writing. This would be too long if I have to reminisce each of inches I spent with him. I didn't know him for one or two weeks. It's been years. Well, let's go back to the cafe where I suddenly saw him. What we talked about then was...marriage. We shared our thoughts about it. Since we had the same background knowledge, we had the same thought as well. I told him I kind of think that marriage is a big deal. There are so many things to consider. He did think so. We mentioned the reasons one by one. Then I remember he once told me that he would marry at certain age. I'm one year younger than him. But it's like he's way older than me cause he looks that old lol. I told him it's two years to go until he reached that certain age he would like to marry. He answered that he kinda had a second thought then he added another five-year to his target of getting married. I laughed. Somehow, I knew it already. Then we continued our talk with different topics that night.
I never post any pictures of him tho cause I've been so picky about what to post especially in ig. Besides, we never really take any serious pictures together so I don't think it's so artsy enough to put it in my feed lol. Well, now, we don't see each other too often. He is busy as always. His mind is full of plans and of course books. He just can't stop trying to achieve what he wants and reading this and that. I let him do anything he thinks it's beneficial to him. It's true I have no ideawhere to whom he'll come back. Whatever he decides, I'll never regret even a second. He's been a lesson after all.
There was one night when I went alone to a cafe with an intention to read journals. But not long after I had a seat, there was someone walked away passing my table. As soon as we noticed each other, we both were a bit surprised. As usual, we got silent for seconds then mumbling we didn't know each other. Of course, it was a platitude. We soon greeted each other. Apparently, he arrived earlier than me. I asked him to sit with me then a minute later he moved on to my table.
He started the talk by telling me how many (new) girls had a crush on him. Some tried to flirt on him, some gave him cheesy pick up lines, some others admitted they liked him and all. I was no surprised. It's so typical of him and he's kind of proud of it seen in his evil smile he was showing. He always says that he's handsome. Yes, he is. But his good looking face drops by everytime he tells me so, lol. We've been knowing each other since the first time we encountered the college life. I totally had no interest in him cause he acted as if he's the most handsome guy on earth. Meh, mlz bgt. Not long after that, something made us work together. As I got to know him better, I started to see the good in him. We started having talks and sometimes having dinner together. So what's the good in him? He's so smart. He reads a lot of books. Like A-LOT. It's not only (classic) novels, but also books of philosophy, politics, history, so many theories, and so on. I kinda always look stupid when I talk to him. His knowledge is just too wide. I only have 10% of his knowledge perhaps. And what's other? Nothing. Lol. He had no sense of humor. I almost never laughed whenever he threw a joke for I never got the funny point. Then he'd say, "Hahaha, kan aku emang gak bisa lucu,"
At one moment on a particular event, he came in. I was out for a while without knowing he would come. As I got back, a girl who had a crush on him told me, "Mba, tuh dari tadi ada yang nyariin," I guess she was hurting while telling me so. Then another girl who used to be closed to him told me the same, "Udah ditungguin tuh," Guess who? Yes, it's him, "Aku mau ngomong." I knew it perfectly it's just an excuse so that he could go away from those girls lol. Told you. He has sort of...many 'fans'. Had no idea why. I kept telling him that if only those girls knew him better, they would definitely have a second thought to have a crush on him. He thought so. Lol. Yet, I did appreciate how he didn't take advantage of them. Right after he knew someone had a feeling on him and he thought he didn't share the same feeling, he'd stop. He even left their chats unread. So I was chill. Never really cared about how many girls out there who admired him. It's his right to choose. As we all know, someone will always find a way to cheat even if we protect them so tight. So I had no worries. I let him do anything he wanted.
He's full of dreams. And he told me some. He's so passionate about what he did. I supported his decisions even when I didn't really agree them. Cause yeah, he knew himself best so why should I tell him what to decide when it's all his life after all? Years after, something hit him hard. He knew that many people didn't like him, but he didn't stop. Rumors were spreading about him. I couldn't trust it tho. I knew he's not that good, but I knew it, too, he's not that bad. I made sure by asking him. He told me the truth without forcing me to be in his side. I believed in him.
Wait, I guess I'm being too far from what I've started at the very top of this writing. This would be too long if I have to reminisce each of inches I spent with him. I didn't know him for one or two weeks. It's been years. Well, let's go back to the cafe where I suddenly saw him. What we talked about then was...marriage. We shared our thoughts about it. Since we had the same background knowledge, we had the same thought as well. I told him I kind of think that marriage is a big deal. There are so many things to consider. He did think so. We mentioned the reasons one by one. Then I remember he once told me that he would marry at certain age. I'm one year younger than him. But it's like he's way older than me cause he looks that old lol. I told him it's two years to go until he reached that certain age he would like to marry. He answered that he kinda had a second thought then he added another five-year to his target of getting married. I laughed. Somehow, I knew it already. Then we continued our talk with different topics that night.
I never post any pictures of him tho cause I've been so picky about what to post especially in ig. Besides, we never really take any serious pictures together so I don't think it's so artsy enough to put it in my feed lol. Well, now, we don't see each other too often. He is busy as always. His mind is full of plans and of course books. He just can't stop trying to achieve what he wants and reading this and that. I let him do anything he thinks it's beneficial to him. It's true I have no idea
She walks a lot. Sometimes alone and some other time accompanied by friends or strangers. Yet, in most of the time, she is accompanied by her own thoughts. Thinking what so essential about life.