Never Wanted to

I never asked to meet you. Never meant to fall in nor even acrossed to my mind. I never wanted to feel more than happy whenever you gave me your smile, whenever you called my name, whenever you looked at me. I never got nervous whenever I talked to others, but when it came to you, my tounge got trapped, my words had turned into steam. I never asked this kind of feeling nor even acrossed to my mind. But, whenever you're around, I felt all shy. I could even hardly breathe, knew nothing what to do.

And, I knew, there would be the time when we have to seperate, I mean, the time when I would no longer see you in frequent. It's never easy to me, but I had braced myself for the goodbye. I had prepared myself to not seeing you as often as we used to. I was ready. And I had to.

But, something has turned out. I won't go. And you'll still stay. I should've been happy. But why is it not? Guess it's better to lose you at the time when you were still around without anyone in your side than to stay still but seeing you with someone in your side. I have not braced myself for this. Why didn't you go at the time when I had braced myself for the goodbye? Why didn't you go before I put hope on you right after I knew you'd still be around? Why do you have to stay if you now keep someone else in your side?